SOMETIMES, I WISHED

Sometimes, some things you want to share
Of all what occurred in the past
I like you have at last dared
To say my heart, but it’s all so sour

Sometimes I wished it would never start
Sometimes I wished it would never end
Even though I knew that what happened
Was never ever in my hands

Sometimes I had a fight with my friends
Sometimes I was left alone
That was a feeling I could not stand
No matter I was at school or at home

Sometimes confusions surrounded me
And lies, betrayal would never leave
My life that I live with fear
Of little laughter and silent tears

Those little quarrels that got heated up
And all those fights I couldn’t stop
I wished they would all end one day
But not when we’re all out of age

I know I have so little humor
But that’s what life has made me
With all those lies and fake rumors
I wish one day I would be free

Sometimes, though, giggles knocked my door
Sometimes I had a ray of hope
But no saint, not even the pope
Could deny that fact that god’s with me no more

Infact, I doubt there is any god
For then the happiness wouldn’t have died
And left me alone with the darker side
Of all the moments that looked so bright

Sometimes I thought of ending it all
But I am not a coward so I won’t be called
For they wouldn’t understand as it’s easy for them
When they walk on a desert with so little sand

Sometimes I wished it would never start
Sometimes I wished it would never end
Because I cannot cross a wall so high
Or loosen myself from a grip so tight

But I know life goes on with all this pain
And so I’ll try, I’ll try again
Then I, with pride, would say
“I faced all the hurdles that came in my way.”